Stressful thoughts.

Finally I got my semester's timetable. Another semester of stress is coming but I have the confidence to face it. I need to make someone important proud. Sometimes I think too much out of my thoughts and stress comes and it makes everything I do more emoish. I haven't been this down inside for so long. Yeah, I do smile and talk funny but I really am stressed out. Maybe it's true that most laughable people are sad inside. I felt it but I hope this stress would give me motivation to pursue my dreams. I really hope so. 

Suddenly I really missed my mum. She is the best mum anyone can get. I do love her so much! 

 

Family selfie! 

Weekend fun in Kampar.

It's been a long time. I had been in Kampar for more than 2 years now. Learned many things here and meet many good friends. 

Tried this ice blended today. Super sweet for me. 

Went to Plan B yesterday at Ipoh with my new met friends. Super funny and friendly gang. Sometimes I need to run away from the chaos with them them. 

Starbucks to kill the craving for such a long time. 

Can't wait for May to come. Birthday parties plus Vietnam trip. It's been a long time since I went for a trip. Fingers crossed for this trip to be smoothly. 

Think rationally.

Ever since the incident, I keep on thinking. Why am I so stupid before?
Believing someone that I shouldn't be believing. For everything I had done, a payback of lies is what I get.
My friends told me, I dint win anything but lose a friend. Yeah, its true. so true.
Ever since you were sad, Im there one there helping you. Comforting you since Im afraid you might do silly stuffs.Coming forward in protecting you. I even quarreled with Oscar because of your matter. Everyone dint bother to believe your words. Who is the one who bring you to have fun at KL and my hometown.
The one who bring you to wash your injuries. All a while, I am the only one trusting you to the end.
When the end comes, all I get is a lie. A big fucking lie.
Maybe I deserve all of this because of my stupidness. You even ask me why I dint have trust in you?
I put all my trust in you and end up with a lie I never knew. How could I trust you more.
Yes, friendship is full of believes and trust but when there is a lie, how can someone still trust you?

Crazy night.

Crazy as always my life in Kampar but one night solves its all.
Why are you trying to turn the story upside down. From truth to another fake story.
Even when you are talking, you cant talk straight because you are talking crap and all the stories are made up? Come on please. We are not infants anymore. We are Uni students and you aspect people to believe what you say with just one word? People are not stupid. You are stupid.
I dont want to talk about the other guys story here because its none of my business.
I just want to talk about mine. Why you need to send messages to others saying this and that?
Cant you use your brain and think? You dont have any friends and want to make others suffer?
Is your heart really that black? You dont like to see other people happy is it?
I already know one friend that betrayed me and you still need to push 3 more of my best friends?
Is it necessary? After that you still have the courage to call them and say that we force you?
Really you can be the QUEEN FAKER in everything. I know you for so long and this is how you treat your friends? Bringing them up onto the table?
Please dont keep saying you are innocent and stuffs. The whole things of coming out to settle it is you.
After asking one of my friends, you dare to say that you dint say anything?
Come one crazy ass, you just said it 2 minutes ago and now you say you dint?
WOW. BIG CLAP FOR YOU. You can wash other people's brain including the guy you once loved but you cant wash ours. Be rational before talking and dont be so childish in blocking people here and there.
Kindergarten is it? block here block there
And for the friend that I most cherish before, use your common sense and think. She dint lie you one but many times and you still believe all the crap she says? You even dare to lie infront of us? Once a lie is said, how can our trust still be there? Im really dissapointed in you.  Im the only one there helping you in denying everything and this is what I get? Who is the one first in so much pain and I keep helping you? Who is the one who stay beside you and trust all the things you said at first? You dare to ask me why I dont fuking trust you? I know this day will come for me and now I have to face it.
I hope you are happy in doing this decision.

Crystal's Graduation.

So happy for my friend Crystal for her graduation. I promised her early this year that I would certainly attend her graduation. Finally I can see her with her graduation robe and hat! So touching as a friend to witness everything. All the best for your future and good of lucks to come. My friends, Liz and Shereen also joined the party!

Me and Crystal.

Liz and Crystal.

Fei and Crystal.

The graduates wannabes.